Wednesday, February 20, 2013

just fight like a girl.

"She is my friend. She's my family. My insides. She will be fine because she has to be fine. 
That's how important she is to me."
carrie bradshaw

 i found out a few weeks ago that one of my most dear and absolute best friends in the entire world has been diagnosed with cancer.
it's funny because i never imagined things like this would happen to my people at this stage in our lives.
we are young. she is young.
she has a darling husband and 2 beautiful baby girls and teaches high school in utah.
she is funny and beautiful and adventurous and the kind of mom i hope to one day be 1/2 as good as.
and now she is in for the fight of her life.

i think the thing i am most amazed at is not only her courage but that even through this storm she continues to be such an example to me of a woman who never loses faith in all the good this world has to offer.
even on her worst days she is braver than i will ever be.
i hope she knows that fact doesn't go unnoticed.

but because life is life and there is never really a convenient time for a tragedy like this to happen,
she and her sweet family could use any help you have to give.
if you can, scan over to the right of my page and you will see i added a button for all of us to contribute to her fight in any small way we can.
no amount is too small.
now i secretly watch all the hits this lovely blog gets on a daily basis so i know you are out there.
 i mean, you helped me win not one but TWO blogging awards with all your votes!!
{remember that?!?!}
so if there is one thing i know and am deeply proud of about my readers it is that you have, most likely unknowingly, created a community through this page.
you are part of my community that i hold dear and take personally.
my little/big bergdorf family.
and one of our family is in need. 

i know you don't know her,
so this will most likely begin to fall on deaf ears because giving even a little bit of something you work so hard for to a complete stranger is indeed one of the last things any of us wants to do.
but you know me and i know her and i love her.
so so much.
she is a deeper part of my soul than she will ever know.
and i know with the right amount of faith and modern miracles and love and support she will be just fine.
strong and healthy and happy and hilarious throughout the rest of her days as my best friend.
because i have never met someone who deserves good to come her way as much as my dear adrienne.
xoxo. and thank you.

ps - follow her blog here {} and leave any happy notes you can.

Tuesday, February 19, 2013


{v-day surprise from my best jo-jo} 

 a sneak peak into this moment of life...
i am currently:
wearing: betsey johnson jammie-jams
reading: safe haven by nicholas sparks
listening: the story by brandi carlile
watching: season 3 of the west wing, season 2 of parenthood along with current episodes of the carrie diaries, hart of dixie, revenge, once upon a time, the walking dead, pretty little liars, vampire diaries & scandal.
{it's a full time job guys}
pedicuring: all kendalled up by kardashian kolor for OPI/Nicole
planning: 8th annual academy awards party
texting: adrienne re: the oven used in the carrie diaries this week & eileen re: pretty little liars' beauticious men
{clearly i'm such an adult}
pinning: anything to do with kate spade
anticipating: my oscar party, i love doing it every year but am always glad when it's over
carrying: prada
crafting: edinburgh landscape photo i have had for years and finally found a frame for
loving: this month's collection of beauty magazines
obsessed with: mentally planning my fashion week trip to nyc this fall

Saturday, February 16, 2013

let's be best girlfriends j. hough.

clearly i saw safe haven today.
and clearly i loved it.
and clearly i now understand that my role in this life is to move to a small town and fall in love with josh duhamel.

okay, but in all seriousness it is a sweet & dear movie that i highly recommend.
the end gave me the kind of chills you get when your emotions are beyond the point of tears.
{that's right folks...I DIDN'T CRY!} 
i liked it better than the notebook.
yes i just went there and no i have no plans on taking it back.
and that's not just because she has the best haircut the screen has seen since cameron diaz in the holiday.

earlier this week she was on air with ryan seacrest and i realized i can no longer hate her for stealing my celebrity husband, but instead just really want to be her best friend.
i mean, who looks like that at 6:30 in the morning?
this also solidifys my sympathy for all those who do not live in southern ca and are without ryan seacrest's radio accompaniment on their way to work everyday.
they are by far & away thee most fun team of people radio has ever heard.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

it's your love.

happy valentine's day loves.
from my sole to yours.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

the heart of the matter.

"forgive yourself the nights you climb into bed full-face of makeup, too tired to take it off. forgive yourself the days when one latte is not enough, when the two major food groups are coffee and sugar. forgive yourself that one night when at two am you woke to use the bathroom and inhaled an entire chocolate bar instead. forgive the time spent with a man you now have not one nice thing to say about. and forgive just how long it took to get over him. he was not good and not kind and he is not your fault. keep some secrets closer. forgive yourself for actually loving the gentle curve of your hips. and to hell with a society which suggests you might not or should not. they herald your womanhood, the man you marry will lose himself in them, they will hoist groceries and children. they are sturdy--anchoring you firmly to this earth. forgive the nights you cannot sleep--sadness or some unnamed force pressing heavy on your chest. forgive the mistakes of the last several years. so you made them. okay. enough. move on. the mistakes and the fault-lines, they are the foundation. forgive yourself that you did not choose an easier path. and forgive yourself the sadness you caused those around you. the broken-promises and cutting words and the things left unsaid. fear was large and biting. forgive the anger you feel. feel it and then look again with kinder eyes. forgive yourself for not handling it all better, for feeling like you let others down. the path is not done, the road is not finished, why are you trying so hard to rush the whole thing? celebrate the fact that your story has some major departures. go ahead and use that expensive serum that promises to diminish those fine lines. protect and preserve your skin. but when the day does come when forehead creases no longer fade into the background, give thanks. humanity made visible! you will be loved all the more for this. you will love yourself all the more for this.  and please, for the love of all that is good and holy forgive yourself for loving a man who cannot love you back. love him anyway. send that love into the world and let it fill you up. the only way to know the story is to go out and and write it. live your way into it. ferociously. begin to live and work and fight and love with an unparalleled ferocity. let fear dictate nothing. unfurl your chest, you have all the armor you'll ever need. see with wide eyes and don't forget to laugh."
--meg fee, taken from a post written: {here}
and so i go on, because if there is one thing i'm learning in this process of sincerely trying to be kinder, more aware, more patient...{which thus far has seemed to merely help me highlight my many faults, go figure}
it's that the person i need to forgive the most in life is me.
i am so very hard on myself and everything i stand for.
and on one hand it is what has pushed me to create my dreams and run with them.
 and on the other hand it has pushed me to many sleepless nights full of tears because i feel like i am always failing at something.

i'm gonna have to start paying her a therapy fee.
aren't her words just lovely?

Monday, February 11, 2013

best vs. worst.

usually i post this fun on facebook,
but since i only have a few dresses to give a shout out to i figured i would let my bloggies in on the action this time.
i think it is a well known fact that i don't love the grammys.
i mean, don't get me wrong...i enjoy any sort of awards show during this season.
but unless your name is t. swift or k. perry i could honestly care less if you win an award,
and don't even get me started on the fashion.
year after year this red carpet only solidifies my opinion that these people are musicians and not budding fashionistas for a very good reason.
heaven help us all...

best {rihanna}
this is living proof that i really am capable of separating the person vs. their outfit.  i can't stand rihanna.  i literally change the station anytime i hear her voice come on my radio.  she just bothers me to no end.  however, you would have to be blind to not appreciate this dress.  she just looks stunning.  from the hair {extensions or wig?} to the nails to the train.  she kept it edgy and classic which i feel is what most people TRY to do at this awards show and most fail miserably.

worst {kimbra}
dear laawwwrrrddd someone escort her to the exit sign.  what is this?!?  i mean, seriously...WHAT IS THIS?!?!  deep down i feel she is just afraid that maybe she is a one hit wonder and is hoping for a slot on next season's dancing with the stars.  otherwise, there is no valid excuse as to how you can walk more than 2 feet thinking this is a good idea.

best {carrie underwood}
i honestly don't think she has ever worn anything i have hated.  the grammys are usually a little bit fashion rock n' roll and i love that she did a complete 180 from that cliche and went for old hollywood glam; same town, different industry.  it's less girly than she usually goes for, but equally as flattering.  i think she is physically incapable of having a fashion mishap.  i mean, even her paparazzi photos look perfect.

worst {jennifer lopez}
from one girl with a ghetto behind to another, we should all know that anything bulky, boxy or flowy is most likely going to make us look like we gained 50 lbs overnight, which is exactly what this dress {ummm...sheet?!?} is doing for her.  the even bigger problem is that her hair is in the most ridiculously tiny top-knot which only accentuates how huge the rest of her looks.  and she is not a huge person by any means.  she has one of hollywood's most enviable bodies, yet ya wouldn't know by lookin' here.  why?!?!

best {katy perry}
i physically get nervous every time this girl hits a carpet.  let's be honest, she misses just as much as she hits. {remember the angel wings a few years ago or did you try and block that from your mind as much as me?}  however, this look is completely flattering to everything about her.  she's got amazing boobs and a tiny waist, why not flaunt it? {ahem...j.lo}.  it's sexy and risky without being trashy.  the color does wonders for her skin tone and i can't say i miss the blue hair of last year's ellie saab look.  i love the embellishment at the top and the contrast of the conservative long sleeves with the uuhhh-not-so-conservative cut out top.  well done katy, my lady.

worst {taylor swift}
eek, this one hurts.  i love her.  you know i love her.  i am just not loving this dress ON her.  i think my one qualm with it is the weird metallic/duck tape framing up front.  the problem is it accentuates the fact that her bones are literally sticking straight out of her chest.  granted, she has always been super thin so nothing has really changed, except that this type of a dress makes her look a bit too skeletal when she usually just looks classy & svelte.  however, all was forgiven the second she stepped out for her circus themed opening number.

best {adele}
guys, i love it.  i know you are not going to love it, but i do.  the pattern is a bit busy, but it's valentino so just let the flower child be.  what i'm crushing on most with this is that my dear adele wore a COLOR!!  i was beginning to think she didn't have it in her.  i just think she looks fun & flirty.  and she yelled at chris brown for not being a gentleman during the ceremony.  and it's valentine's day so why shouldn't she have some fun in red?

worst {beyonce}
girl, i know you are the queen and everything and even took the lights out at the superdome last weekend but put on a damn dress.  the end.

best {nicole kidman}
one thing i appreciate from her is that she never wears the same dress twice and by that i mean the same style.  she is a completely different person everytime she hits up a carpet.  from hem lengths to trains to bodice cuts to waist lines she mixes everything so well.  and now that she is botox free {her words, not mine} and can move that pretty face of her again i feel like all is finally right in my world.  do you feel me on this one?  PS - LOOK AT THOSE SHOES!!

worst {carly rae jepsen}
again, i love this little china doll like my own girlfriend, but everything here is just way too harsh for her tiny frame.  her bangs are a titch too long, her hair is a titch too straight, her makeup a titch too dark, her dress a bit too tin foily.  and i just thought the dress was dull compared to what she could have done.  she is usually so spot on at somehow mixing the tom boy w/ princess glam and i love it.  but here i just feel so blah about the look as a whole.

best {no one}
i really did want to end this on a good note, because who doesn't want a happy ending?
unfortunately, i feel all the other dresses really are ones their wearers woke up this morning regretting.

Sunday, February 10, 2013

some nights.

and some nights you simply have to call it quits.
aka: lay in bed watching confessions of a shopaholic while shoving cereal down your throat.
clearly i have my priorities right in life.
and it's not because the world is bad or you are unhappy.
it's because you are simply over so much that you can't solve.
and you feel like you try your hardest and get nowhere.
and you have hope but wonder if that is being just a little bit foolish and naive.
and you wish you fit in just a titch better with normal.
and you wonder if the day will ever come where you give and actually get in return.

like i said...some nights.
we shall try again tomorrow.
until then...xoxo.

Saturday, February 9, 2013

gladiators in suits.

oh me oh my, i have said it before and i will say it again,
loves...if you are not watching scandal than you are not taking advantage of one of your basic rights as a human being of which you sit on the couch thursday nights with popcorn and a diet coke and get lost in a trashy, soapy, well written, insanely thought out, fabulously dressed, well acted piece of television.
i mean, even oprah is in on this fun.
for all you fashionistas out there you can follow the official pinterest page {here}
to get olivia pope's best looks and makeup tricks.
{armani and gucci heaven!!}
or you can read about the real life olivia pope {here}.
but for the less crafty & historically enthused i simply suggest you just buckle down with the rest of the world on thursday nights and enjoy the scandalous ride.

ps - to maximize your viewing fun, hop on twitter.  the entire cast live tweets on thursday nights for the east coast AND west coast and they are like kids on Christmas morning in terms of how well their show is being received.  for the january 31st episode the fans "broke" twitter with a staggering 2,200 tweets per minute and 5 world wide trending topics. 
it's smile inducing.

Friday, February 8, 2013

live colorfully.

happy 20th anniversary to my favorite design lady ever.
you keep my life colorful & happy,
and my bank account empty.

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

just one of the boys.

for this month's edition of ESPN magazine, the music issue, they gathered 14 athletes and persuaded them to re-create what the magazine considered to be 14 of the most memorable album covers of all time.
olympic soccer superstar alex morgan was amoungst the group.
personally, i think they gave her the toughest act to follow...

as previously seen by...
i don't know about you, but i believe she pulled it off just fine.
look at those superstar soccer legs!
and i will never, ever get over thee outfit.

Sunday, February 3, 2013

happy birthday to you.

as you can see, my january consisted of little to absolutely no time here.
that's because every free second i had was dedicated to a BIG party i threw for a little person.
back in december my co-worker asked if i could help plan a 1st birthday party for her daughter, charlize.
truth be told, i was terrified.
i have thrown lots of parties at work.
and i have thrown lots of parties for my own benefit.
but never have i been asked to throw a party for someone with an actual budget and real expectations and a whole lot of my pride at stake.

we started with the theme of down on the farm/southern country fun.
we hired a petting zoo, pony rides, face painter, balloon artist, and shaved ice creators.
we rented a tent to cover the chairs and tables, along with an old fashioned pop corn machine, cotton candy machine and bounce house.
our dessert table was all things tasty with southern charm.
and our lunch/dinner table was all things seafood and noodles.
the party favors were those fun little walking pet balloons you pay an arm & a leg for at South Coast Plaza.

thee birthday princess.

ruling the cotton candy machine.

my dessert table masterpiece.

T.McW with the sweet piggy from the petting zoo.

 super proud of my balloon arch.

centerpieces for the dining tables.

cookies for the dessert table.

every one year old needs her own bottled water...

upclose at the dessert table.

 pony rides on the block, something you don't see every day.

i would like to think, it turned out pretty darn well.
until she turns 2...xoxo.