i miss you.

one year ago tomorrow my sweet grandmother passed away.
i don't talk about her much.
i guess sometimes the things that affect us most in life are the ones we tend to stay the quietest about.
well, for me anyway.

and although i know with everything in my soul that she is happier and healthier where she is now,
i can't help but miss her.
a little bit, all the time.
i try not to think of the moments lots of girls share with their grandmas that i never will...
helping me pick out my wedding dress.
{she had flawless taste}
being in the room with me when i get married.
visiting me in the hospital and holding my future children during their first days in this world.
helping mold them, as she did me.
and i would be lying if i didn't admit i cry every once in a while about the potential memories i will never have with her.
but lucky for me, she left a legacy of lessons for me to cherish always and pass along to my children one day.
click {here} to read them for yourself.
they are ever so dear and precious to me.

and so, in true meredith schwartz fashion, we are off tomorrow.
not to be sad, but instead to find some holiday cheer at what once was her favorite place.
disneyland!
duh.
my darling grandpa is taking our entire family,
{extended and close}
to spend a day celebrating the love we have for each other,
the love we still have for her,
and her life well lived.

dear, sweet grandma...
i miss you.
i love you.
i can't wait to jump into your arms again one day.
xoxo.